Tag: spiritual awakening

  • The Gospel of Rain

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    It’s been raining here.
    A lot.

    Not the soft, wistful kind of rain that makes you want to stare out a window with a cup of tea and listen to Sigur Ros. We’ve had that too, but this has been the relentless kind. The kind of rain that soaks through boots and schedules and small talk. The kind that doesn’t ask permission before it starts washing things away.

    And yet… I’ve been paying close attention.
    Because something in me has started to wonder if the rain knows what it’s doing.
    I’ve been learning about soil. About herbs and healing and the ancient ways—those old paths that understood the body as part of the Earth, the Earth as part of the divine, and healing as a return to harmony and flow, not just the absence of pain.

    I’ve got garden beds waiting to be filled in the backyard. One will be for fruits and foods, the other for herbs and medicines. I’m making my herbalism dreams a reality. An aloe on the windowsill that was thriving until the repotting and still might make it, if grace holds. Grow bags lined up like little promises to my future self. And in the middle of it all, I’ve been watching how the rain seeps into everything—how it turns the compost, softens the crust, reminds the seeds they’re not forgotten down there.

    But this isn’t just a story about gardening.

    This past week, our friends lost everything in their basement. Three feet of rainwater swallowed their world. We spent the weekend cutting drywall, lifting soaked furniture, tossing years of life into a dumpster while their kids watched from the stairs. There’s a particular kind of silence that fills a house after the flood. And there’s a strange kind of holiness in carrying waterlogged pieces of someone’s story, shoulder to shoulder, soaked to the bone, laughing when you can, crying when you need to.

    I work with water for a living. Storm drains. Pipes. Septic tanks. Systems that most people only think about when they fail. I know firsthand what happens when the flow gets blocked. I know how dangerous it truly gets when what was meant to flow stagnates.

    And I think that’s what this rain has been showing me.

    So this is not a weather report.

    This is a gospel.

    A gospel written in raindrops.
    A gospel for anyone who’s ever felt the ground beneath them has turned to mud.
    A gospel for the overwhelmed, the uprooted, the ones learning to grow again.
    Because the rain isn’t here to ruin us.
    It’s here to bring life.
    It’s here to return us.
    To the soil.
    To each other.
    To something older and deeper and far more alive than the life we built on the surface.

    Welcome to The Gospel of Rain.
    Let it soak in.

    -JD

    We are made of these…things…

    dirt… and water… and breath.

    That’s not poetry. That’s Genesis. That’s biology.

    Rain doesn’t just fall from the clouds. It gives. It baptizes the ordinary. It brings the hidden back to life. And if you truly pay attention you’ll start to notice: the Earth doesn’t just respond to rain. It remembers it in a beautiful way.

    And maybe we do too.

    We as people have forgotten the gospel of the ground. The good news written into roots. The sacred story woven by weeds and worms and wild herbs growing in the cracks. Somewhere along the way, we’ve traded the ancient truth for convenience, plastic packaging, and produce that doesn’t rot because it’s so stripped of life it doesn’t even know how to properly die.

    But the gardens still sing the old song. And if we’re willing to slow down, become aware, and listen, it will teach us how to sing along again.

    Jesus, Soil, and the Mystery of Seeds

    Jesus didn’t build temples. He didn’t establish seminaries. He told stories about soil.

    In Matthew 13, he says the kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed, small and overlooked but capable of becoming a tree that is a shelter for birds. He says some seeds fall on rocky ground, some on shallow soil, some among thorns, and some on good soil…and the difference isn’t in the seeds. It’s in the readiness of the Earth.

    The soul, like the soil, must be open… soft enough to receive, nourished enough to sustain, deep enough to grow.

    This wasn’t purely metaphor. It was sacred geometry. Divine agriculture. A cosmic parable encoded into every living thing: life comes through death, transformation takes time, and good fruit only comes through rootedness.

    Jesus didn’t say believe these doctrines or memorize these creeds. He said:

    “Consider the lilies…”

    “Look at the birds…”

    “The kingdom is like a seed…”

    He was pointing at the Earth, not away from it.

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    Honor Your Father and Mother

    There’s an old commandment, one many of us learned in childhood:

    Honor your father and your mother.

    It’s usually read as a family ethic. But I’m beginning to wonder if it isn’t so much more.

    What if the Father is referring to our Divine Source, the heavenly blueprint in the stars, the radiant Spirit that animates all things…

    And the Mother is the Earth, the womb of form, the soil of becoming, the very dust from which we were made?

    In Hebrew, the word for “earth” is adamah—the root of the name Adam. In the Jewish mystical tradition of Kabbalah, Adam represents not just a man, but humanity as a whole—the cosmic being, both formed from the dust and filled with divine breath.

    To honor the Father and the Mother, then, would be to walk in alignment with where we come from—Spirit and Soil. Breath and Body. Mystery and Matter.

    When we dishonor either; by spiritualizing everything and denying the body, or by commodifying the Earth and forgetting the sacred, we lose our way.

    We lose our very selves.

    Wisdom from the East

    The Taoist tradition teaches us about living in harmony with the natural rhythms of life. The Tao is the Way—the Source from which all things emerge and to which all things return. It flows like water, nourishes like rain, moves like wind through trees and time.

    “The Tao does nothing, yet nothing is left undone.” – Lao Tzu

    In gardening, this wisdom becomes real. You can’t force a plant to grow. You prepare the soil, tend the space, and then you must trust the seed to know what to do. This is the heart of both mystical faith and herbal practice: alignment and harmony, not control.

    In Hinduism, the idea of dharma reflects your truest path—your alignment with nature, spirit, and self. There’s a beautiful teaching that all beings have their own dharma, even a leaf or a river. To live your dharma is to live like a tree: rooted, patient, in service to the whole.

    Herbalism becomes dharma when we begin to see each plant as a bearer of wisdom, each root as a teacher. We don’t just utilize them—we commune with them and we learn from them.

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    Soil as Scripture, Rain as Revelation

    We were made from the dust. That’s not a demotion. Honestly, it’s a deep honor. The same elements that form stars form your cells. The same carbon in a fallen tree lives on in your bones. The Earth isn’t beneath us. She is of us.

    The Bible says, “The heavens declare the glory of God, the skies proclaim the work of his hands” (Psalm 19:1).

    And the Earth?
    She doesn’t just absorb the rain
    She listens. She remembers. She responds.

    Rain isn’t just water falling from the sky.
    It’s the memory of the heavens returning to the soil.
    It’s the baptism that makes resurrection possible.

    Soil isn’t just dirt.
    It’s alive. Teeming. Holy.
    A thin place where death becomes nourishment.

    And the herbs we plant?
    They’re not just medicine.
    They’re messengers.
    Whispers from the old world,
    carrying healing that’s older than any of the systems we’ve created.

    The Garden is Calling Us Back

    We live in a time when disconnection is profitable.
    But reconnection is powerful.
    Revolutionary.
    Healing.

    When you grow your own food, you remember that abundance isn’t just an idea, it’s a practice.

    When you tend to your herbs, you remember that healing is not always instant.
    It’s relational.

    When you let the rain baptize your garden, you remember that nothing living thrives without receiving.

    This is the gospel of the garden.

    The truth that’s been growing since the beginning.

    Eden is not lost, it’s waiting for us to honor our Father and our Mother.

    Since you’re still here, I wanna know:

    What are you growing this season in the soil?
    In your body?
    In your spirit?

    What rhythms are you aligning with that the world told you to ignore?

    What would it look like to honor both your Father in heaven and your Mother beneath your feet?

  • Does God Need Blood?

    Yesterday was Good Friday and that has me thinking a lot about Jesus, his life, his movement, his death, and his resurrection. And I think it’s important that we talk about this, because how we present “God” to humanity is important. And that starts with our understanding.

    For centuries, Christians have wrestled with a haunting question: Why did Jesus have to die?
    The answers, depending on who you ask, can vary wildly. But one of the most dominant explanations — especially in American churches — is something called Penal Substitutionary Atonement (PSA).

    This is the idea that Jesus died in our place, taking the punishment (penal) we deserved for our sins, satisfying God’s wrath so that we could be forgiven. In short, God needed blood — Jesus’ blood — to satisfy divine justice and cool His wrath.

    It’s a theory so embedded in the modern Christian imagination that many assume it’s the only explanation. Even further, most Christians believe that you have to believe this to even be saved or to call yourself a Christian. From Sunday sermons to Mel Gibson’s The Passion of the Christ (or as I like to call it, Beating Up Jesus: The Movie), the narrative is relentless: humanity is sinful, God is angry, and Jesus took the beating we deserved. Roll credits.

    But there’s a glaring flaw to this theory… Jesus never said that. What if that’s not the story that Jesus came to tell?

    Let’s peel this back and start at the beginning.


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    What is Atonement Theory, Anyway?

    The word atonement literally means “at-one-ment” — the process of reconciling humanity back to right relationship with God.
    The earliest followers of Jesus, trying to make sense of his death and resurrection, developed different explanations for how this reconciliation might work.

    Here’s a quick breakdown of the most common theories:

    • Ransom Theory — Jesus pays a ransom to free humanity from Satan’s grip. Big in the early church.
    • Christus Victor — Jesus defeats the powers of sin, death, and evil.
    • Moral Influence Theory — Jesus’ life and death inspire radical love and compassion.
    • Penal Substitutionary Atonement (PSA) — Jesus takes our punishment, satisfying God’s supposed need for justice.

    PSA, which is what I’ll call it for the rest of this post, didn’t actually become mainstream until the Reformation (thanks, John Calvin), but today it’s everywhere — especially in American evangelicalism. It’s preached so often and so passionately that questioning it can feel like questioning the Gospel itself.

    But maybe the problem isn’t the questioning.
    Maybe the problem is how we’ve been taught to see God in the first place.


    The Problem with PSA: God or a Bloodthirsty Warlord?

    Let’s just be blunt: PSA turns God into a cosmic child abuser — a Father so bound by legalism that He has no choice but to kill His Son to forgive the rest of His creation.

    Imagine telling a hurting, broken person that God loves them unconditionally… but also required someone to die a brutal death to make that love possible.

    It’s no wonder so many walk away from church when they realize how twisted this sounds. Especially when they realize that the type of “unconditional love” that this belief comes with… seems to have lots of conditions, rules, and expectations.

    If God is truly love — the kind of love Jesus taught us to embody — then He shouldn’t require violence to offer forgiveness.
    We are the ones who demand violence.
    Empires demand violence.
    Religions demand sacrifices.
    God doesn’t.

    The crucifixion wasn’t about satisfying God’s wrath.
    It was the inevitable outcome of what happens when you confront the violent systems of the world with radical love and truth that renders external power systems as useless.


    Who Killed Jesus? (It Wasn’t God)

    Look closely at the Gospels, and you’ll see: Jesus wasn’t executed by God’s hand.
    He was crucified by Rome, at the urging of religious leaders.
    Empire and religion, working together, do what they always do to threats: they eliminate them.

    They silence them.
    They crucify them.
    They declare them dangerous, and they snuff them out.

    Jesus didn’t die to appease God — he died because he exposed the corruption of both empire and religious establishment.

    His life was a living protest against systems built on power, exclusion, and violence.

    • He ate with “sinners” and “outcasts”.
    • He healed on the Sabbath.
    • He forgave without a sacrifice.
    • He called out the religious elite as “whitewashed tombs.”

    They didn’t kill him because he was too holy.
    They killed him because he was too loving, too dangerous, too uncontrollable.


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    The Symbolism of the Cross: A Bigger Story

    If Jesus’ death wasn’t about paying off God, then what was it about?

    Through a mystical lens, the cross is layered with meaning:

    • It’s a mirror. It shows us what we do to truth, to love, to the divine when it doesn’t fit the systems and constructs that we’ve created.
    • It’s an unveiling. It exposes the violence and corruption baked into both empire and religion. The need to be right and superior, rather than repentant and transformative.
    • It’s a victory. Not the victory of punishment fulfilled, but of death and violence defeated — precisely because love resurrects.
    • And it’s an invitation. To leave behind systems of fear and step into love and alignment.

    Jesus didn’t die to uphold the sacrificial system of death and lack.
    He died to end it and bring life and abundance.

    In Matthew 5:17, Jesus says he came not to abolish the Law, but to fulfill it. And how did he fulfill it? By embodying what the Law was always pointing toward: mercy, justice, love, faith. He became the final sacrifice — not because God needed blood, but because we needed to see, once and for all, that sacrifices were never the point.

    The divine doesn’t trade in blood debts.

    The divine trades in grace, mercy, blessings, and mystery.


    So… Does God Need Blood?

    No.

    God doesn’t need blood — we do.
    We were the ones who believed sacrifices made us clean.
    We were the ones who demanded violence and death to balance the scales.

    The cross is Jesus stepping into our broken system and letting it do its worst, only to rise again and prove that love is stronger than hate, forgiveness stronger than vengeance, and life stronger than death.

    The cross wasn’t about satisfying divine wrath from a sense of lack or separation.
    It was about unmasking human wrath and showing us a better way through faith, abundance, alignment, and generosity.

    Jesus’ LIFE … his radical compassion, his healing, his forgiveness… was the point all along.
    The resurrection isn’t proof that God accepted the payment.
    It’s proof that the powers of this world don’t get the final say.

    That there is a better Way that’s been unfolding straight from the Source.

    And it’s inviting us, leading us all somewhere greater in the here and now.

    So let’s stop worshiping a bloodthirsty warlord and start following the revolutionary, resurrected Jesus — the one who taught us that God’s love doesn’t come at the end of a whip or a nail… but at the table for the least of these, with bread, wine, and an invitation to love like he did.

    Because that’s the Gospel.

    And that’s enough.

    You are enough.

    A Child of God.


    What does this stir in you? Let’s wrestle with it together in the comments.


  • The Cross Was Never “Plan A”

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    At my church growing up, Easter was an event.

    Not just Sunday morning services. I’m talking full-scale theatrical production, like small-town Broadway with a crucifixion. We called it an Easter play, but really, it was a full-blown Passion drama — complete with billboards along the highway featuring my sister on Jesus’ lap, men in the congregation growing out their beards for historical accuracy, and a backstage makeup crew armed with fake blood and latex scars like a low-budget horror film masquerading as salvation.

    My actual sister talking to Jesus, aka my friend’s dad Jim, for our Easter Spectacular

    The sanctuary would transform into ancient Jerusalem. Lights dimmed. Smoke machines puffed out an eerie haze. Roman soldiers stomped around in homemade armor. I can still hear the clank of their plastic spears on dowels against the grey-carpeted plywood stage. And then there was Jesus — usually played by the same middle-aged volunteer every year, my friend’s dad Jim, who somehow managed to look both exhausted and radiant under the spotlight as they lashed him and led him to the cross he had just carried through the audience.

    Musical numbers were woven throughout, of course. These weren’t your tame, soft-rock worship hits. (Although we definitely included Avalon’s timeless CCM banger, “Testify To Love”) These were operatic, full-throated ballads about blood, sacrifice, and salvation. High drama. Choir robes swaying. And every spring, as the trees outside the church began to bud and bloom, those songs would crawl back into my head like ghosts of Easter past.

    We didn’t just perform it once, either. No, we ran it for a full weekend, sometimes longer. And after the play wrapped, we’d leave the cross standing at the front of the church like a trophy. For weeks afterward, during regular services, it loomed there — scarred, splintered, stained — casting its shadow over every sermon, every song.

    I remember sitting there as a kid, sandwiched between my friends, half-distracted by thoughts of holding hands with one of the girls in the youth group, sneaking glances during altar calls. Hormones and holy fear mixed together in a strange cocktail of confusion.

    But beneath my adolescent daydreams, another thought kept gnawing at me.

    Why did it have to be this way?

    Even as a kid, part of me wondered why the story was written in blood. Why the whole spectacle — the torment, the torture, the grotesque display of violence — was presented as good news. Why God, who supposedly loved us beyond comprehension, needed so much suffering to be satisfied.

    I didn’t have the words for it then. I just knew something felt off.

    Now, all these years later, I’ve started to understand what that feeling was.

    It wasn’t doubt.

    It was an invitation.

    That invitation would take years to answer. But eventually, it led me to question everything I thought I knew about the cross.

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    I grew up believing the cross was God’s “Plan A”.

    That from the dawn of time, God had been building toward this gruesome, brutal solution to the problem of human sin. That our rebellion was so total, so cosmic, that the only way for God to stomach our existence was to watch His own Son be tortured to death like a common criminal.

    They told me this was love.

    But I remember staring at the blood-stained cross in the sanctuary, week after week, and feeling something under my ribs tighten. Not reverence. Not relief.

    Grief.

    Confusion.

    A quiet, trembling sense that something here didn’t fully add up.

    Because if God is love… real love, unconditional love, not transaction-in-disguise love… then why the need to demand blood at all? Why set up a system of cosmic justice that could only be balanced by violence? Why build a universe that requires innocent suffering to fix what fear and separation broke?

    The deeper I went, the harder it became to reconcile the claim that Jesus’ death was necessary with the belief that God is, at essence, goodness itself. Not just good “to us,” but good at His very core level of being.

    And it turns out, the language had been whispering to me the whole time. I just didn’t know how to listen.


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    See, we inherited a story shaped not just by scripture, but by centuries of empire. Empire loves blood sacrifice — because empire lives by the sword and dies by the sword. Empire loves a violent god, because it justifies its own violence.

    But buried beneath the empire’s version of the gospel is an older song.

    Take atonement, for example. We were taught it meant appeasing God’s wrath. But the English word comes from “at-one-ment.” Union. Restoration of relationship.

    Or repentance. The Greek is metanoia — not groveling, but a change of mind. A widening of perception. A turning toward the light.

    And in Hebrew, there’s teshuvah — not a groveling apology, but a return. A homecoming. It literally means “to turn back,” not toward punishment, but toward the Source of life itself. Teshuvah is the art of remembering where we belong, of finding our way back to wholeness when we’ve lost the path. (I wrote about it at length in this blog post a few weeks ago.)

    Even sin. The Greek hamartia means “to miss the mark.” Not a legal violation deserving execution or bloodshed, but a distortion of aim. A sickness needing healing, not punishment.

    And sacrifice? Long before it became code for slaughter, the Latin roots point to “to make sacred.”

    To make sacred.

    What if Jesus didn’t die to satisfy God’s demand for violence, but to make sacred even the ugliest parts of our human story? To enter into the belly of the beast — into the empire’s machine of war, death, and brutality — and expose it for what it really is?

    A sham.

    A system built on fear, fed by scapegoats, perpetuated by people too terrified to imagine another way.


    The cross was never Plan A.

    Plan A was — and always has been — union.

    Plan A was the Garden. Walking together in the cool of the day. No separation, no shame, no sacrifice needed.

    Plan A was breath. Spirit. Ruach. The animating presence of God in all things.

    But we lost our way. Not because God demanded blood, but because we did. We built religions of fear and altars of violence, believing that blood would keep the gods at bay.

    And Jesus — Yeshua — stepped into our madness not to affirm it, but to dismantle it from the inside.

    To let it exhaust itself on his body.

    And then, to rise from the grave, holding out his wounds not as receipts of divine satisfaction, but as evidence of our deliverance from the system we thought would save us.

    The cross is not a transaction.

    It’s a revelation.

    A revelation of what happens when divine love collides with human fear.

    And a revelation that, in the end, love always has the last word.


    I’ll be unpacking this more in my next post: Does God Need Blood?

    But for tonight, let this question linger:

    What if the cross was never Plan A?

    What if God’s original plan was never punishment, but participation?
    Never condemnation, but communion?

    And what if the resurrection is not God’s bailout of a broken system, but the unveiling of a love, miraculous and powerful, that has been beneath it all, waiting to be discovered?

    We’ll go there.

    Soon.

    Stay tuned.


    Thanks for taking the time to read my blogs! I’d love it if you subscribed or left a comment, especially if something resonates with you or if your church had an easter play and I brought up some memories! -JD

  • John the Baptist

    The Wild Prophet

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    When we think about John the Baptist, we tend to picture a ragged, half-crazed desert preacher — camel hair for clothes, wild honey in his beard, shouting about repentance while dunking people in the Jordan River. A supporting character at the beginning of Jesus’ story. The opening act before the main event.

    In my opinion, we’ve sanded down his rough edges a little too much.

    John the Baptizer wasn’t just a quirky preacher paving the way for Jesus. He was a societal disruptor. A revolutionary. A wilderness prophet who stood outside the system not just geographically, but theologically. He wasn’t just announcing Jesus; he was embodying a radical shift — one we still wrestle with today.

    Let’s take a deeper look at the man Jesus called “the greatest among those born of women” (Matthew 11:11).


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    The Wilderness Prophet

    John didn’t preach in the temple. He preached in the wilderness. That alone should be setting off all the lights on your dashboard. Something more is going on here just beneath the surface.

    In Jewish thought, the wilderness wasn’t just a location. It was a symbol. Chaos. Testing. Transformation. Israel wandered there for forty years. Prophets met God there. Jesus would be tested there.

    And John? He didn’t just visit the wilderness. He became it.

    • He wore camel’s hair and a leather belt — the uniform of Elijah (2 Kings 1:8), signaling that he wasn’t just another preacher but a prophet in the old tradition, standing in defiance against the powerful and idolatrous.
    • He ate locusts and wild honey — food of the poor, the unclean, the untamed.
    • He rejected the privilege and status of his priestly lineage (his father, Zechariah, was a temple priest) and instead lived on the fringes of society.

    He wasn’t a prophet within the system. He was a prophet who was raging against the system.


    Repentance: More Than Feeling Bad

    John’s central message boiled down to one word: “Repent!”

    But the Greek word used — metanoia — doesn’t mean “feel bad for your sins.” It literally means “change your mind,” or more deeply, “go beyond your current way of thinking.”

    John wasn’t calling people to wallow in guilt. He was calling them to wake up. To see differently. To think differently. To change their mind.

    Repentance wasn’t about religious rule-following. It was about freedom — stepping out of old patterns, old assumptions, old ways of being, and into something new. It was about loosening the grip of fear, power, and control so people could be in a state to recognize the Kingdom that Jesus was bringing.

    My friends in Convictions actually released a song all about this type of spiritual shift aptly titled “Metanoia” and if you’re in to Metalcore you should check it out!


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    Baptism: A Radical Act of Rebirth

    Baptism wasn’t new. Ritual washing was already a part of Jewish tradition. But as with most things in the scriptures: John did something different. Something new.

    In the temple, ritual washing was about purity — preparing to enter God’s presence. It was something you did repeatedly, cleansing yourself over and over.

    John took it out of the temple and into the Jordan River. And suddenly, it wasn’t about ritual purity anymore.

    It was about death and rebirth.

    Going under the water was a symbolic burial of the old self. Rising up was a step into new life. A life not defined by Rome, not controlled by the temple, not shackled by fear.

    It wasn’t about being clean. It was about being free.


    The Baptist and the Lamb

    Then one day, Jesus showed up at the river.

    John saw him and said, “Behold, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world!” (John 1:29)

    It’s easy to miss how shocking that was. The crowd would have expected a Messiah described as a lion — a warrior-king, a liberator.

    But John calls him a lamb — a symbol not of power, but of sacrifice.

    John saw what others missed. Jesus wasn’t coming to conquer through violence. He was coming to conquer through self-giving love. Flipping the whole thing upside down.


    What John Means for Us

    John’s life wasn’t comfortable. It wasn’t safe. It ended in a prison cell, with his head on a platter.

    But his radical message still echoes:

    • Go to the wilderness. Sometimes you have to leave the familiar — the systems, the beliefs, the comforts, the noise — and go out into unadulterated creation to hear God clearly.
    • Repent. Not by beating yourself up, but by letting go of the old familiar ways that no longer serve truth or love.
    • Step into the water. Leave behind what’s false. Rise into what’s real.
    • Point to the Lamb. Even when people expect a lion or a king. Even when they want power and control, point to self-giving love instead.

    John reminds us that sometimes, the way to prepare for new life is to step outside of the old one — even when it’s messy, uncomfortable, or lonely.

    Because the wilderness isn’t where life ends.

    It’s where new life begins.

  • Severance and the Divided Self: A Spiritual Reflection

    Spoiler Warning: This post has some Season 1 Spoilers

    “Your so-called self…is a lie.”

    That line from Severance, TV’s mind-bending dystopian masterpiece, feels like a handshake with your innie — intimate, unsettling, and not meant for this version of you. The show takes a simple, horrifying premise—what if your work self and your outside self were completely severed from each other?—and spins it into a deep, unsettling meditation on identity, control, and the nature of consciousness.

    Just beneath the surface of its eerie corporate corridors and existential horror, Severance carries a spiritual weight that I picked up on from the first episode. It speaks to something primal in us, something fundamental to my own worldview—this sense that we are divided, fragmented, struggling to reconcile the different pieces of ourselves. That we live in a world that demands compartmentalization, while something deep inside us longs to be whole.

    And at the heart of it all, a question: Who are you, really?

    The Innie/Outie Divide

    The entire concept of Severance—splitting a person into two consciousnesses, one that only exists at work and one that only exists outside of it—is terrifying because it’s just a more extreme version of what we already do.

    We wear social masks. We create personas. We play roles. The person we are in one environment feels radically different from the person we are in another. We adapt to survive, but in doing so, we fracture ourselves.

    This is what many traditions call the false self—the identity shaped by external expectations, fear, and survival mechanisms. It is the mask we wear to navigate the world. In the show, the “Outie” (the self outside of work) believes they are in control, while the “Innie” (work self) exists in a state of perpetual servitude. The Innie wakes up every morning with no past, no future—only memories of work. Only obedience. And yet, the Innie is the one who begins to question, to resist, to long for something more that they know exists beneath the surface if they could just figure out how to access it.

    Spiritually speaking, the Innie is like the soul. The part of us trapped in a system it didn’t choose. The part that begins to awaken, often in suffering, often in darkness, and asks: Is this all there is? Is this who I am?

    The Great Lie of Control

    Lumon Industries, the cold and god-like corporation at the heart of Severance, operates like a religious system gone wrong. It offers salvation in the form of certainty—your work self will never have to worry about the outside world, and your outside self will never have to be burdened with the misery of work. A perfect, ordered existence.

    But that order comes at the cost of freedom. And doesn’t that feel sort of familiar? Doesn’t that always tend to be the trade?

    Religious institutions, political systems, and cultural structures often give the promise of peace, security, and identity—so long as you don’t question. So long as you accept the role assigned to you. So long as you don’t resist.

    But true spirituality—true awakening—is and has always been about curiosity and questioning. It is the Innie looking up from the fluorescent-lit purgatory of Lumon’s halls and thinking, “There has to be more.”

    It is Jesus saying, “The truth will set you free.”

    It is Lao Tzu saying, “Knowing others is intelligence, knowing yourself is true wisdom.”

    It is the mystic realization that the walls around us are merely constructs, that the roles we’ve been given are not who we are, and that something vast, wild, and uncontainable calls us to move beyond them.

    Reintegration and Wholeness

    One of the most haunting parts of Severance is the sheer horror of reintegration—the idea that the Innie and Outie might become one, that the veil might be lifted, and the full self might finally be known. The fear isn’t just about discovery—it’s about what that discovery would cost.

    Because wholeness always costs something.

    To awaken spiritually, to step into a fuller, truer way of being, means facing and shedding our illusions. It means facing truths we’ve been conditioned to avoid. It means no longer hiding in the comfortable amnesia of our constructed identities. Who we think we are.

    But here’s the paradox: that wholeness, that integration, is what we were truly meant for.

    The way I see it, sin is not about rule-breaking—it’s about fragmentation. It is the sickness of separation, of being divided from ourselves, from each other, and from the Source. It is looking for the cure to come from somewhere or something else. And Salvation? Liberation? That’s reintegration. That’s truly healing and becoming whole.

    Severance is a horror story because it shows us what happens when we are forced into separation. But it is also a call to wake up. To fight for our own reintegration. To remember that the walls we place between us are not real. That the prison of the false self is not our home.

    Because we are not meant to be divided.

    We are meant to be free.

    What Now?

    So where do we go from here? If the false self is a prison and the Source calls us to reintegration, what does that look like in the real world — beyond metaphor and mysticism.

    Reintegration starts with the radical act of seeing. Becoming aware. Seeing the masks we wear, the roles we play, and recognizing that they are not who we are. It’s looking at the systems — religious, political, social — that demand our compartmentalization and asking, “Who benefits from my division?”

    Lumon thrives because its workers are divided, docile, and obedient. So do the institutions that profit from keeping us fragmented. They need us to cling to tribal identities — to believe that we are separate, that we must defend ‘us’ against ‘them.’ They thrive on our belief that our Outie is righteous while our Innie deserves punishment, or that our neighbor’s Innie is somehow less human than our own.

    But what if we stopped playing along? What if we refused to see anyone as an Innie or an Outie — as “us” or “them” — and instead recognized the whole, sacred self in everyone we meet?

    Connecting with the Source isn’t about climbing a ladder to some distant, holy plane somewhere else. It’s about remembering that we never left. The Source isn’t out there. It’s within, and it’s within everyone else, too. It’s in your boss, your barista, your enemy. It’s in the waffle party and the melon bar. It’s in the strangest corners of existence — and the most mundane. It is the deep, cosmic hum beneath everything, calling us back to each other.

    And what do we do with this freedom? We live like people who remember the truth: that we belong to each other. That we are not cogs in someone else’s machine. We create, we love, we resist systems that demand our obedience, and we help others awaken to the reality that they were never meant to live as half a person.

    The final scene of season 1 of Severance is harrowing and powerful — the Innie awakens, sees the truth, and screams it into a world that doesn’t yet know how to listen. That’s the risk of waking up. The world might not be ready for the whole you.

    But wake up anyway.

    Because you were never meant to stay asleep.